There are times when I feel deeply ashamed to call myself a Christian, especially at this time when the Church at large seems intent on destruction and isolation in its debates over homosexuality and the role of women in the Church. Yes, you can say that Christ was male and heterosexual (although there is no proof for the latter), but is that the point? Is it not the case that Jesus represents the Divine in all human beings, irrespective of sex, race, gender and sexuality?
The story of Christ's passion mirrors our own predicament; each of us suffer and die, but with God's grace we pray that we may find resurrection.
Here is a poem I wrote some years ago which expresses this hope in the most mundane of settings:
The clarity of the dark
leads to a solitary flame
as wax drips, a figure kneels to another,
three dimensional, the other two?
But the eyes cut, hands heal.
Eyes cut, hands heal, despite nails,
because of nails,
that nail her, nailed to the past.
Angels nailed, past, present,
seemingly, the future drags on.
Remember the Children's cry,
tiny bikes rusty in the rain,
thrown amongst bright molded, plastic bricks
finding foundation in uncut grass,
as children find perfection in television gloss.
If only adults found it that easily
amongst piles of dishes
unwashed in the kitchen sink,
nailed, just the same, nailed,
"Don't you want to kiss me?"
But she too received a kiss,
a kiss led to the nails,
nailing her to the past, the present
a future which drags on.
dragging love and all it's remnants
behind her.
"Don't you want to kiss me?"
As we gaze at photographs
and remember miracles,
we remember miracles...
But today, I talk in the garden,
you, unhearing, read a book,
eat chocolates,
and we wait,
hoarding love and all its remnants,
in the hope of resurrection.
(note: the original had "him" instead of "her")